It’s come to the end of the year and so much has happened. I don’t know if I could put it all together without missing something and having to go back to it. I would like however to put down a few takeaways that I am taking with me into 2018.
At one point, I was in my dream job, Editor of a magazine that which I always wanted. It came just when I was about to take another job and there it was-with almost close to barely there experience -I took it on. Wait this was last year but fast forward to this year when I found myself giving up the reins reluctantly.
Lesson number one, never get comfortable; life happens, you need to always be on your toes. At the moment this was happening, I didn’t think I would get over it but I did. I’m not where I wanna be but its been great-funnily enough. Doesn’t mean by any chance I have given up on what I want, just means, I’m taking it a step at a day.
Lesson number two, keep s**t to yourself. Yeah, this is a song sang over so many times but naah, seems I like to make some mistakes more than once to prove to my doubter self that it is so. I made a couple of new friends this year, thought seeing as we hit it off, this was a safe space. It was not a safe space, Houston I repeat-not-a-safe-space! Oh brother did this get me in trouble more than once jeez, Lord I pray this is something I learn and make a habit of-keep things to thyself-Every thing!
Lesson number three, say what you feel. Don’t get me wrong, don’t tell your boss, exactly what you think of them, see point number 2. But to those special people, tell them. Sometimes you’d like to hear the things you say, said back but it doesn’t matter. You might hear them, you might not, point is you never kept it to yourself-you’d be surprised how good it feels. Say it and leave it be.
Lesson number four and I cannot stress this enough, keep the people who are worth your energy, time and love around. For the rest, rid yourself of that toxicity-you don’t need it. If your job feels more like manual labor-except if it actually is-and it’s ridding you of happiness, leave it! If a friend is really just that by name but nothing when it comes to action, leave them. You’d be surprised how short life is, look at me, last year I was “24” and this year I’m still “24” like where did time go??? Just leave it.
Lesson number five and as I write this I realize I have learnt so much but I really should go feed. Its time for my after lunch, pre-dinner snack time and I need to give it all the attention. Can’t be writing and snacking something’s bound to go wrong, like my eggs getting cold! Anyways, I digress, the most important lesson I’m taking with me-learn to breathe and let go.
I believe in a higher power. I believe in God. I believe when I pray, things happen. I however am a control freak and try to control every aspect but sadly I can’t. Imagine being able to control every thing, life would be boring. Anyways I learnt, do what you can, do it to the best of your ability that way you don’t find any room to wonder what if and then just let go.
Things have a way of working themselves out. I believe God has a special plan for us even when it seems like perhaps he might have gotten your prayer wrong. Little thing I learnt, NO, he knows perfectly what you need even if this is revealed waaaay later on.
So even if you take nothing from this, i wish you would learn to let things go. I personally have done a lot of things I cringe about, things I wish I could take back but it already happened. I forgive myself for all I disappointed myself in, I reward myself for that which I did good and take note of how to go about things better. Can’t move forward looking back at the past.
So here I come 2018, hopefully a bit wiser, with less complaints, more gratitude and more bold!!